JADED

"Never gonna give you up! Never gonna let you down!"
-"Never Gonna Give You Up" by Rick Astley -

After reviewing for a total of 23 hours, answering Über hard questions for 10 hours, the first periodical examinations are finally done! In one word, I can say that the tests were frustrating. Yes, frustrating - very frustrating that it reaches the point wherein you want to bash the skull of the one who made the test for its high level of difficulty.

For the first day, we had Physics, Filipino, and MAPEH(yes, MAPEH). Physics was obviously the hardest test even though some of its items can be answered with sheer common sense. Filipino was just fine and MAPEH was kinda tough too - that matching type is giving me the chills.

For the second day, we had English, C.L.E, and Math. English was very fine and C.L.E was the headache-inducer. All the questions seemed to have squeezed all information possible from my mind. Math was as usual hard and heck, computing while not having your senses is hard. By this, I mean that it is hard to compute while you are feeling sleepy at the same time.

Earlier, we had Economics and T.L.E. Economics was just fine. Considering the fact that it had lots of confusing questions, it was a fine test. T.L.E was somehow hard with all the conversions stuff included. Heck, I could not care less as I finished the test on time.

On August 29, it would be the day that I fear most: C-A-R-D-S O-U-T. Yes, the giving of cards. However, with the new school administration, there is a new catch. That catch is only the parents or guardians can get the card. That is like wow. In all seriousness, I like the move but then, aren't there any better ways than this one?

20 days to go and heck, I just really wish that this year's celebration will be better than last year. Heck, I already have something in my mind. It is just a matter of settling the rough patches in my life first before doing any of the planned things.

Yesterday, I did the most offensive sin that I have done in my life. Bullshit really. What the heck have I done?! It's so disappointing. Maybe I really need to loosen up and go to this "reflection mode" once again. I feel pissed off at myself. In all seriousness, I feel sorry for myself and sorry to you as well - you know who you are.

Damn is all I can say. I will apologize definitely. Heck, I feel depressed. Do I really just love depression? Damn. BTW, get well soon Arelle!

Sorry.

"Never gonna run around and desert you! Never gonna make you cry. Never gonna say goodbye. . ."

NEW LOOK

"I bleed it out digging deeper just to throw it away!"
- "Bleed It Out" by Linkin Park -

After going through some code works and the like, here it is! My blog has now a new look. Just comment about this on the chat box located on the left sidebar of this domain of mine. It's not really a massive overhaul but nevertheless, it is still an overhaul done by yours truly.

The school week was just fine. For one, I was caught sleeping by our Math teacher himself. He was like this: "*insert my last name here*? Again, *insert my last name here*?" Then my classmates laughed and I woke up and I was extremely shocked to know that I slept in Math.

Physics has been a chore. One, the quizzes are too tough to answer. Two, the examples given are somehow hard to comprehend. Three, the discussions make me awake yet I could not answer some problems at first.

C.L.E classes have been a mystery. At times, I get bored. At times, I do not get bored. For some reasons unknown yet to me, I find the subject as tough if not appreciated big time by the student.

T.L.E classes have been fun! Imagine this: Baking cookies in school. I call it F-U-N. I never knew how baking cookies was until this year. Thank God for technical education!

Catechism has been somehow good. We will undergo our mission sending by next week if I am not mistaken. Hopefully, I will have the patience needed to teach young students about the Catholic faith.

English has been so far, the best subject that I have been through this year. The teacher is simply awesome. The teacher never bores me and I like the way the subject is being taught. Student participation has been high if my observations are to be based. The quizzes are not that hard and the topics are very very interesting.

Filipino has been good too. The way things are handled by our teacher have been laudable. The lessons have been somewhat not that interesting at some point for me but still, they are damn good.

MAPE, oh gawd. I never found myself having an artistic talent. What the heck?! What about my physical conditioning, who the hell cares now?!

Health, I would like my comments on this subject to be reserved only to myself and to my friends at school. :D

So far, I am loving my section. It is definitely better than my section last year which I despised big time for reasons that I won't tell since I do not want to drag myself onto a controversy.

So yeah, I want to be one of the best this academic year and I will do whatever it takes to reach that goal. For one, I want to stop my losing streak in terms of academic years that started in my 2nd year(weirdly, my 1st year was one good year).

Social life this time around. My social life has been good. Well, should I say the word "inspired"? Well, I just said it. That is how I am now. Simply amazing eh? But then, if things go to worst-case scenario mode, I might just as well forget that I even had a social life in the first place. That is how I am serious if ever I want to move on and forget some things in my life which has been weird yet I still find it as a blessing nevertheless.

This is it for now. My mind suddenly went blank because of mental pressure.
Savvy?

"Just to throw it away . . . just to throw it away!"

IT STARTS WITH ONE THING

"It starts with one thing and I don't know why . . ."
- In The End by Linkin Park -

Oh oh oh. This week has been somehow good. For one, I do not know but then, I am really just being happy recently. Thank God for making me happy. Thank goodness. But with happiness comes a price, a price that I am willing to pay. That price is I have to face some tough grinds in my life now.

A certain someone has been making me happy recently. Heck, I do not know why but then, I am shy to that someone at times. But one thing is for sure, that someone is making me happy and inspired at the same time.

I have been boggled with thoughts whether I have to continue what I want to do or simply hold back and just forget. God has helped me in answering that problem. Next, I have to conquer one fear of mine and that is talking to that someone. Hopefully, I can overcome it.

Thank you for making me happy. I am sorry for somethings that might have pissed you off especially this week. Well, I cannot think of anything else to write.

So yeah, I will be taking the UPCAT on August 3 at 6:30 A.M. Good luck to myself. I have to pass this test in all seriousness.

What song has been stuck in my head for a long time? Well, a song entitled "Viva La Vida" is the answer. Mah gawd, I can't believe the song "Elevator" by Flo Rida feat. Timbaland makes me dance.

Before the school year ends, I really want to dance Caramelldansen in the classroom. There are 39 days left before my birthday. Hopefully, I will have a good birthday this year.

"It doesn't even matter . . ."

THE RETURN OF BLOG THINGS

Well, I decided to let those surveys or whatsoever thingamajig called Blog Things return in my blog. For some reason, I was bored so I decided to make an entry about them.

What Jio Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Well, I am shocked by the results. Most of them are true. Seriously, how can an online thingamajig describe me almost perfectly? I am just disturbed by this. So well reader, good bye!

Savvy?

SIMPLY AMAZING

"Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum"
- Disturbia by Rihanna -

Saturdays are usually used to be rest days for people who belong to the labor force. For students, Saturdays are days where they can rest and do whatever they like. But then, for me, Saturdays lately have been review days for that U.P.C.A.T which I will be taking on either August 2 or 3.

Reviewing lessons such as logarithms are hard. For the heck of it, these are lessons which will be tackled on the 2nd Semester according our teachers. For Chemistry, gas law problems are a pain in the butt. Formulas are just really mind-boggling things. In all seriousness, these things made me sleepy. They bore me but then, they are important so I have no other choice but to listen.

Well, something amazing happened. While on the tricycle, I saw this plate on a vehicle which resembles those terrain vehicles used by soldiers - the one like those Jeep-branded vehicles in the United States. The said plate answered my prayers. I am seriously happy about it. It shocked me but heck, I am just happy. I found a new purpose for me to do some exploring about my options.

I am simply amazed by what has transpired. God indeed gives signs during the least you expected it to come. Thank goodness I saw that.

As I am typing, I do not know what are the things exactly running on this mind that luckily is still running like a well-oiled machine after all those works. I have been blogging more frequently if you have not noticed.

Mah gawd. I just experienced a "writer's block". I still have to finish two articles. Goodness gracious. When will those assignments stop?! They have to stop momentarily. Please just stop please.

I cannot think of anything else to write. I have something to build on now. :D. Well, it's just a matter of doing things at the right time.

"Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum"

ALKSDALSKFDJASL

"I never knew I could hurt like this . . ."
- "Bye Bye" by Mariah Carey -

As regards to the title of this blog post, those were just randomly typed letters in the keyboard. I cannot think of a title for this so I just typed some letters randomly and the final result was the title.

Friday was fine. Frustrating for quite a bit since I failed in making the right calculation for the drinks for the picnic which occurred earlier. It was Über disappointing on my part since I felt like I deprived them of having a good drink. But then, we all had a good time and we had lots of crazy pictures taken for the love of God.

I cannot really sleep well last night. I was thinking of lots of things. I have been facing problems lately(Oh God, when will they leave my system?). In all seriousness, I have to make a choice about it. It is either I go for it or just forget that I even had planned something in the first place. For the heck of it, I am really having a hard time. Add the fact that . . . never mind. That would just be a private statement by yours truly.

A friend suggested that I chill out but I want this problem to be fixed in the soonest possible time. As far as I am concerned, I will go with this option. It is the best option out of all options left for me to use in all seriousness. Hoping for some help, I really need it and if I fail, I only have nothing else to blame but myself once again.

I somehow have a fear on the opposite sex in school especially to some people there. I really do not know why but they just have this intimidating aura which rattles me off at times. I am trying my best to be confident socially but it is a long and painstaking process. It requires time and patience. But then, both are limited. Time flows fast and you might lose it. Patience . . . well, you lose patience. I will be going for the best option. I just hope I will succeed.

We had some Mass earlier and it really enlightened me. I got sleepy not because of the priest but because I lacked sleep due to me thinking of lots of things before I slept. The homily of the priest was simply awesome and all I can say is I hope he will be the official priest of the school from now on.

I cannot think of anything else to write. I successfully bored myself through this entry. Oh well, it is now time to do whatever is needed.

"And everyday life goes on like I wish I could talk to you for awhile."

MAGAZINE APPERANCES

"The time that I've taken. I pray is not wasted."
- "One Sweet Love" by Sara Bareilles -

Since I am bored, I will share to you guys the pics of me appearing in magazines here in the Philippines.


That is my letter appearing in Playground. Just click the picture for you to see the whole picture. Thank you.


That is my forum post appearing in GamesMaster Philippines. Yey!


That is my MLB '07: The Show review appearing in K-Zone Philippines.

Well, these are some of my appearances in magazines. What do you think? BTW, I give credits to my new scanner and printer for those pictures.

Tomorrow is a brand new day and heck, I have four freaking quizzes for tomorrow. Have a good day.

*still bothered*

"Have I already tasted my piece of one sweet love?"

FRIDAY MADNESS

"I was lost!" I was lost!"
-"In My Place" by Coldplay-

This day was just tiring. With P.E as our second subject, I was like "Come on, how come P.E was separated into three separated days?!" It was like we had to bring those P.E uniforms every single day. Like come on, use the logic that we all have people.

Then Math time was the bomb. It was like watching a new episode of Lost after missing several episodes. I was really clueless and thought of "Am I really awake at this moment? Am I really reading this sheet of paper filled with circles?" It was like it was the only first time that I have met this concepts in my life in all seriousness! I expect that I have failed this test big time. I have learned one lesson and that lesson is whenever I feel sleepy in class, I ought to stand so that I can wake up myself through blood circulation.

English time was . . . well, weird to say the least. The topic was cellphones and heck, it was more of recitation. But before all the discussion, there were those oh-so-unforgettable safety drills such as the fire drill and the earthquake drill. We were like treating the drills with no seriousness at all. Then those boys were racing when the bell rang. It was like they were desperate to get out of a cage. Then after all those drills, we had our discussion. Patrick, a classmate of mine but not Patrick Del Rosario, suddenly had this mood to challenge me into a sort of debate then it was like the classroom was laughing and I was sensing some weirdness from the word "go".

I do not know why but I really like reciting in Economics and English. Those subjects never cease to amaze me and they do not bore me to death. Economics . . . oh those resources, then scarcity. I still cannot forget them. In English, every discussion is lively for unknown reasons.

As I am typing this entry full of not-so-organized thoughts, I am listening to some song by Radiohead named "Jigsaw Falling Into Place" from their "In Rainbows" album.

It is now 12:20 A.M here in the Philippines. All I can say that Friday was a freaking day.

"Crossed lines I should not have crossed!"

IT's THE ATTACK OF DEPRESSION AND NEGATIVITY

"Emotive unstable. You're like an unwinding cable car"
-"The Unwinding Cable Car" by Anberlin-

Classes were suspended today but I feel like nothing at all. Depression struck me again. How many time have I said the word "depression" right in this domain of mine? Too many times eh? I do not know. I have been listening to the Vitamin String Quartet. This group is simply awesome. They have turned Incubus' "Drive" into one freaking good orchestra version.

I have been thinking negatively a lot this week alone. For what reason you may ask? I do not know as well. I have been like this since my sophomore years in high school. I do not really how this thing affected me. Things just definitely snowballed on me.

Depression is the last thing I need now and then it still comes. Do I really just attract the aura of depression? In all seriousness, I want this negativity to stop. Maybe I should not really have been thinking of what about will happen to me in terms of my social life. Maybe I just have to end this thing myself by quitting and saying " I really do not stand out a chance at all." I do not know. If only I know the future, I would have done something right here and right now. What the heck am I just saying here? Oh well, that is what you call "talking to one's self when bored big time and thus, it results to random thoughts."

Whew. That is all I can say. After several bouts with depression, I am again encountering another one. I am tired of it to be honest. If only I know that my decisions in the past would be futile, this would not have had happened. I am not blaming anyone or some things here but rather, I am blaming myself. Oh well, hopefully I can bounce back from the sting of depression.

Being depressed causes me to be negative which then causes me to lose lots of confidence in dealing with other people. I am not really feeling well these past days. Thank you depression thank you.

Oh well, it's the end of this entry.

"I'll guard your heart . . . "

SARA BAREILLES AND 3 DOORS DOWN ADDICTION

"I'm not gonna write you a love song!"
-Love Song by Sara Bareilles-

"It's not my time!"
-It's Not My Time by 3 Doors Down-

Well, thank you Sara Bareilles for making me feel good and happy. Your songs have made me feel energized especially "Love Song" and "One Sweet Love". This school week has been quite different. Monday was a "painful" day. Tuesday was a tearjerker. In all seriousness, both days were filled with tears on my part. The sudden charge of the memories from the past . . . made me realize that you only realize a person's importance once that person lefts.

Enough of that. Well, the Celtics are your NBA Champions. They deserve it. They were hungry and Rajon Rondo was the factor in my opinion. He made all plays and I would have wanted Kevin Garnett to be the MVP of the Finals.

I just installed Firefox 3 and it sure is better. The fonts are better and I will take a closer look at it tomorrow once I am done with freaking school work.

I do not know what exactly I am feeling now. It is either I am infatuated or simply nothing. I simply do not know and heck, that joke by Miss Penilla was like "Uh huh Ma'am". I was shocked that she said that. For some reason, I was indeed shocked but not pissed off. I ought to get used to that.

I honestly think that with people saying I am "good", I am not great. I am not used to such reaction. I am not used to such gestures from them. I am not comfortable with it but I have the patience needed to withstand it.

I think that many people in the room dislike me with huge intensity. This is one reason why I feel uncomfortable with all those applauses. I do not know if they treat me with sarcasm or what. Seriously.

I am now gathering up some materials for my article for Cor Unum. I will write something about basketball. Simple as that.

My goal this school year is to get into the honor roll and bag that thing I really need or want which is . . . something that I cannot tell. I will do whatever it takes to get that thing. Seriously, I want it badly.

Math has been boring lately. I like the subject matter but the discussion . . . ugh, makes me sleepy. Hopefully, I can pass through those tests. Oh man. . .

BTW, thank you P.E classes for giving me an achy midsection and some painful shoulder muscles. And I meant that sarcastically. :D

This is it for now. My "writing juice" has finally run out.

"'Cause you asked for it!"

"I'm not going!"

MIXED BAG

No freaking song lyrics for this entry. I would want you dear reader to have a moment of silence first and pray for someone. Thank you in advance.

Well, school was like a mixed bag of emotions. One day, it would be good. In another day, it would be sad. Then, it would be stressful. It's just really packed with different emotions. As I am typing this, I am thinking of one person who recently went back to the Lord. Please pray for that person's soul please.

Oh well, I customized my Windows Vista with some theme here. Here is the link of the picture of the desktop: WHATEVER. Comment at it if you want to. The icons are big though. But now, they are not.

One YouTube video series has kept me hooked. That video series is Yu-Gi-Oh! The Abridged Series by LittleKuriboh. It really is funny. Just search for it in YouTube. It currently has 29 episodes. Tristan Taylor's voice is simply awesome.

Depression struck me again. Oh well, 4th Year life is indeed stressful. Hopefully, my school year will be impressive academically. I do not care about the social aspect of my life for now. I only care about academic status for now. I need this year badly.

Oh well, I just hope the Lord Almighty will be kind enough. He is kind enough and I trust Him. After all, he is our Universal Brother and Universal Friend.

May you R.I.P. You will always remain in my heart. Thanks for all the memories.
*salutes*
*cries*

P.S This entry was quite hard to type even though I only mentioned you in few instances. Still, rest in peace.

LSS'ED I THINK

"Do you think about me now and then?"
- Homecoming by Kanye West featuring Chris Martin of Coldplay

School has returned and I was like not happy at all. But after the first day was done, it was like a different feeling. One that was not the thing that I felt with Exodus. It was a deeper feeling of happiness. It was something that I experienced for the first time after 2 years or so. Well, it is somehow near to extreme happiness. I don't want to elaborate but come on, am I just lucky or what?

Seriously, my swagger is back. Oh yes, my long lost swagger is definitely back. What a time for it to come back. It just came at the right time when I exactly needed it. It is just a matter of using my resources to build momentum on some very important stuff.

I am happy now. The section feels like it is one good family. Not yet close but still, it is fun. Mr. Santos . . . oh man! He makes every move here and there. He sings oldies songs. He says some stuff that I don't know. He is like a teacher that makes me awake together with Mr. Sarmiento.

Well, yeah, I am just happy and shocked. I won't elaborate. I need privacy too on some matters anyway.

-Some NBA Finals notes-
Boston won earlier and I think Kobe Bryant was just not really in a rhythm. If the Lakers win Game 2 then, I can see that the 3 home games at Staples Center will be very crucial. Paul Pierce was exceptional in my humble opinion.

Thank you Lord! And hopefully, I can succeed.

FIRST DAY WITH PHILIPPIANS

"I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing!"
- Viva La Vida by Coldplay

So yeah, I had my first day of classes for the S.Y 2008-2009 earlier. It started very early for me. I woke up at 5 A.M to get my day kicking off. After all those morning stuff in the bathroom, I ate my first breakfast for the school year which was a tasty hotdog sandwich. Then there, I dressed up and read the newspaper while waiting. So the first front page headline that I've read this school year is "Presidentiables say "no" to snap elections". Then after reading for about 30 minutes, the school service came.

Of course, in the school service, there is a radio which plays songs. The first song that I've heard from the radio in the school service this year is "Nakapagtataka" by APO Hiking Society. Fortunately, it was not the Sponge Cola version which was very poor.

Then, yeah, we finally arrived in the school after all those fetching. Heck, I was like lost at first until I saw my friends. We talked and talked and talked until we were asked to go inside our rooms. I was shocked to see some familiar faces and I was shocked too to see that some of the unexpected happened.

Then we had our first flag ceremony of the school year by 8 A.M. By 8:15 A.M, we had our first prayer service for the school year. By 8:20 A.M, we passed our admission card. By 8:21 A.M, we had this discussion about the handbook which was . . . boring to be honest. Like we talk about this rules stuff, it made me sleepy. Then we also had our schedule for the new school year. It looks weird to see that all subjects have only a one-hour time allotment. Pretty good still but weird.

By 9:05 A.M, we talked about those committees thing. I wanted to be in the "Cleanliness Committee" but then, we were too many so I was moved into the "Liturgy Committee". Yes, I am the only boy there if I recall correctly.

By 9:10 A.M, the first joke by our adviser, Mr. Dungca, was said! It was like LOL for the win! By this time too, the first loveteam of the class was made. It featured me by the way. Seriously, LOL. By this time too, the second joke was mentioned! Woohoo! By this time too, the index card thingy was mentioned too. By 9:11 A.M, the third joke was stated! Nice! By 9:17 A.M, Marti has done his first classroom sneeze! LOL!

Then the discussion continued and then some introduction(the never ending I suppose) until the bell ran for recess. We had our first recess of the school year on a Wednesday at exactly 10:30 A.M. We had our first CLE class by 11 A.M. We had our first lunch at 12 noon. Then our first MAPE class by 1 P.M. Then our first English class by 2 P.M. Then, we had our Math class which was weird at 3 P.M

Mr. Santos was acting like weird. He was singing some Cat Stevens and some other classic songs probably from Frank Sinatra. Seriously, he thought that I was sleeping wherein fact, I was just like making doodles since I was bored. That's pretty much it about my first day.

"Roman cavalry choirs are singing!"

THANK YOU *SARCASM*

"This is the time of my life!"
- Time of My Life by David Cook

I am obviously frustrated. I am also angered. I am also pissed off at the fact that some people that I dislike will be my classmates again. Again, yeah, again. That is what you call a moment that can be described in one word. Actually, many one-word adjectives can describe this. One is disappointing. One is annoying. Another is irritating.

Seriously, seeing them again was the worst-case scenario that I expected. However, whatever happened which made the so-called "Sectioning gods" to put them back together with me in one section. Nice really nice. And take note, I said that thing with extreme sarcasm.

I need some first day luck and yeah, hopefully, I will have it. Like come on, what else could happen? Seriously, is it just that good luck is not yet around or what? Oh man, I seriously need some luck and hopefully, I will have a good time tomorrow. Hopefully, this school year won't be like last year wherein I experienced the worst time of my school life.

Optimism pays a long way and yeah, I will still treat this year with optimism and hope. It is just that it seems that there nothing to be optimistic about at this moment.

Day 1 starts tomorrow. Early wake up times. Countless projects. Countless tests. Boring discussions. Boring teachers. Annoying classmates. Nice friends. Numerous problems. Liking someone(Oh whatever). Some rather senseless arguments. Sleeping times. Writing notes. Doodling some scribbles. Eating together. Hiding from Mr. Santos. Oh those times.

So yeah, I might be gone from the internet community for quite a while. It is time to be serious again. Summer is over and I hate that fact.

"And I'll taste every momend and live it out loud!"