THE DIMINISHING INTEGIRTY: THE MALU FERNANDEZ ENTRY

The Malu Fernandez issue has really been a hot one in Pinoy bloggosphere. Her article really talks about not having the following: JUSTICE, INTEGRITY, RIGHT ATTITUDE, RIGHT CONSCIENCE, RIGHT PRINCIPLES, and SIMPLY NO NATIONALISTIC PRIDE WHATSOEVER.

First and foremost, Ms. Fernandez doesn't look good aesthetically so she doesn't have the right to whine as if she's a V.I.P who deserves first-class treatment like that of those being given to divas and stars alike. I can't believe that Ms. Fernandez acts as if she's a good-looking diva. I believe that going under the knife won't actually help in adding "beauty" to her face.

Second, Ms. Fernandez was actually lucky to be seated next to Filipinos because if she was seated next to a person of a different nationality(who MIGHT smell nastier), then she is experiencing first-hand a living hell. Also, Axe is a widely-established brand. It is econimically affordable rather than your Jo Malone.

Third, I firmly believe that Ms. Fernandez has a huge problem with her attitude and principles. I think she is engulfed in a space no one could imagine wherein she thinks she is a beautiful person. For Pete's sake, she doesn't look good at all. Also, she is simply defining the term "STUPIDITY" with conviction and perfection.

Fourth, since Ms. Fernandez imagined herself as a sardine trapped in a sardine can, well, she is actually a blue whale, considering her size, that the plane can't accommodate. Scent is not the problem Madam but it's your paradigms.

Fifth, Manila Standard Today simply must be boycotted. Malu Fernandez returned as if nothing happened. That's simply bullshit. She is not a responsible journalist. She did not think that OFWs actually help the country a lot. She did not think that OFWs are her FELLOW FILIPINOS. She simply needs to go to a mental rehab facility to restore her memory and for her brain to function well to say the least. Manila Standard Today, with the return of Malu Fernandez, simply became despicable. Sorry to say this but I think you just screwed up your already-established good reputation big time by letting Ms. Fernandez return.

Seriously, I really think you deserve MORE BICKERING. I really think that you did not learn anything at all from all those comments hurled against you.

Manila Standard Today simply must explain why it did this and that. When it let Malu Fernandez, it added an insult to the injury to those OFWs who got persecuted even though what they are doing for the country is already a huge lift.

Malu Fernandez, you fail big time!
Savvy?

THE GUILTY VERDICT ON ERAP

WRITER'S NOTE: The following entry will only be an opinion presented about the verdict handed down on former President Joseph Estrada and of course, the court case itself.

September 12, 2007 - a date that will never be forgotten in the laurels of Philippine History. This said date ushered in the new chapter of Philippine Politics and closed down one of the nastiest and ugliest issues of Philippine interest.

As history shows, Erap was ousted by the people through the "EDSA People Power II" event. This event was ignited by the refusal of some senators then, to open that secret envelope during the hearing or case against Erap.

After a long wait, approximately 6 long years, the verdict was handed down and it says that Erap is guilty of plunder but acquitted from perjury. If you are to ask me which verdic does Erap deserve, let us dig deeper to the circumstances of each verdict before I say my opinion.

A "GUILTY" verdict will mean that the Arroyo Government today is still legitimate and we did not have a bogus president. It will also result to economic progress according to investors. It will mean that no one is really above the law. But then, Erap's "fans", the masses, simply can't accept the fact that Erap's "obvious" wrongdoings marked his downfall. A "GUILTY" verdict will also mean that the judiciary system in the Philippines, though it is still lagging behind other countries and at times, incompetent, is still an active one and still a force to be reckon with.

A "NOT GUILTY" verdict will simply mean that the Erap ouster is illegitimate. It will mean that GMA was a bogus president from 2001-2004. That simply is the reason why many assumptions like "The government made Erap guilty just because of Edsa 2".

NOW MY TWO CENTS . . .
Right from the onset, I felt that Erap will be given a "GUILTY" verdict. The evidence was really substantial. Also, the X-Factor was none other than Chavit Singson. This former Congressman had the guts to spill the beans and thus, he exposed to us the injustices of the Erap administration.

To Erap's supporters, especially in the showbiz sector, the Erap case happened first before the Joc Joc Bolante case, the Jose Pidal case, the extrajudicial killings, and so on and so forth. That is why it was solved first by the Sandiganbayan. Simple logic please guys. In my opinion though, the verdict divided the nation simply because the people have contrasting beliefs and opinions. Showbiz people are meant to entertain. Showbiz people are not meant to be activists who bastardize the country. Enough said.

To all the people of the Philippines, just accept the verdict and move on. It's for the best of our country. Erap did a mistake and he has to pay for it. We simply have to move on and help the Philippines become a better place.

In my opinion though, the special treatment should stop now. Erap's now a convict then he still has this special house arrest! What message are you trying to present here to the Filipinos, Sandiganbayan? If you are to ask me, that means you're implicating to other criminals that it's ok to commit one offense to another since they will get special treatment anyway. WTF is that!

Also, to both Erap and Jinggoy, why are you whining now? If my memory serves me right, you said before that you will respect the verdict of the court no matter what it is. Now, the contrary is happening. Talk about being true and being principled.

Savvy?

WHATEVER

PROLOGUE OF SORTS: This entry was composed last September 12 but due to time constraints, I was not able to finish it on time and subsequently, post it. Sorry for the inconvenience.

"That may be all I need. In darkness she is all I see. Come and rest your bones with me. Driving slow on Sunday morning and I never want to leave."
-Maroon 5's "Sunday Morning"-

I'm certainly not happy today. I can't believe that I haven't moved on yet. Dammit. I'm so effing stupid. I'm just really suffering the aftermath of my idiocracy in life. Oh well, life must go on and I can say that I deserve to be branded as a very stupid human being who just didn't fare well in making decisions in life. I thought that I can stop thinking about her. I thought that I can really do things without even thinking about her. How stupid of me think about that. Goodness gracious! I should just stop thinking about the past and simply occupy myself with lots of activities. Hopefully, all will be well.

So many thoughts . . . so many mistakes come afterwards. It has been like this for me since August 30, 2006 - that day that has set the tone for all the BS and crap that has happened. You might think that I'm crazy for this. If that's the case, then I might say that this certain "craziness" has caused my downfalls in life.

I've stated before that I was kinda "demoralized" by the past and I kinda "regret" it. That's normal. I was just immature for such a momentous chapter in my life and I just paid the consequences.

It's good actually that I am able to cope up with lots of stresses, both physical and emotional, this year. Well, I attribute that to just being able to hang in there when it is really needed. Oh well, this is getting nonsense.

It's my fault and that's simply the undeniable reality that I saw. If I didn't do this, if I didn't do that . . . you get the picture. Things wouldn't have had happened if not for my immaturity at decision-making. Oh well, there's a saying that goes by "Think about the positive side of things."

Last year, she was the cause of all the happiness. This year, I can't comment on it. I have a reputation to protect and some other things prevent me from doing it anyway.

Happy Birthday to Yao Ming and Celine! May you have better moments in your life and wish you all the happiness.

Savvy?

SOME OF THOSE THAT WERE FORCES ARE THE SAME THAT BORE CROSSES

"Some of those that were forces are the same that bore crosses"
-"Killing In The Name" by Rage Against The Machine-

Memories just flashed through my mind earlier so I decided to just post an entry about it. First and foremost, sorry Chiel! Second, this day was actually uber fun. I bought three books earlier in National Bookstore. The three books were: "Tuesdays With Morrie" by Mitch Albom, "The Anansi Boys" by Neil Gaiman, and "The 6 Most Important Decisions You'll Ever Make" by Sean Covey.

After all the strolling in SM Clark, of course, we returned in this house so as to celebrate my Grandma's birthday. Well, after all the rituals, I went back to my room and play the PS2. I played of course, MLB '07: The Show. I'm currently engrossed in the Career Mode of the game.

I'm currently doing some stuff related to the iPod. That is I'm adding some songs. At the end of this entry, I would be sharing to you the newly-added songs list. I'm listening to the song "Welcome To The Jungle" by Guns 'N Roses now. The song is just really damn nice.

Few more entries and I would have then 100 entries! Yes, a hundred entries in this blog! Oh man, never mind my fantasizing moments.

Recently, I'm happy. I don't know why but then there is still one unanswered question hanged by the past. She didn't answer one question that I asked last week. I don't know why she didn't answer it and I hope to get the answer some time soon.

Okay, this is it for now. School is back again tomorrow. Dammit.
Savvy?

THE NEW SONGS:
1973 by James Blunt
Welcome To The Jungle by Guns 'N Roses
I'm Yours by Jason Mraz
Beautiful Girls by JoJo
Wake Up Call by Maroon 5

A WEEK WHEREIN I MADE A DECISION

"Understand that most problems are a good sign. Problems indicate that progress is being made, wheels are turning, you are moving toward your goals. Beware when you have problems. Then you've really got a problem. . . Problems are like landmarks of progress."
-Scott Alexander-

September 7, 2007- a date that I would never forget. I simply won't forget this week and that special date that I have just mentioned. You see, I've been doing acts to get closer with someone for this present week. Only time will tell if I would court the girl or not. One thing's sure though. She has certainly made me happy.

As you can see, there was some confusion in my part because I still can't forget the pain. I still can't forget all the anxieties that I've felt. I still can't forget some of the bad events. I don't know why. It all just keeps on coming back to me like a stray bullet. I really want to be mad at myself now. I want to end my misery but I simply can't overcome some uncontrollable circumstances.

I'm just really happy that I am starting all over again a new life. A new life wherein I hope I could manage to shrug off the pain inside and just be a stronger person. I just really hope that I could follow the thing that the "past" said. That thing was I should just forget the pain and move on. I've tried to do it but then, it all botches up in the end. Dammit.

If ever you misinterpret this entry of mine, I'm deeply sorry. I just can't forget all the pain. I'm awestruck by everything that has been happening regarding my emotions and past events. I'm sorry. I just can't contain it any longer.

As seconds, minutes, hours, and days pass by, I'm slowly getting closer to the conclusion of all these things. The puzzle was solved but the puzzle is not the only problem. There has been some fault in my part too. It was I who caused this mess so I really think that I must fix it. Seriously, who doesn't want one's mess to be unattended?

This week, I made a decision on whether I must be optimistic and continue or just hold back and raise the white flag. Well, I've decided to be optimistic. I just really think that I must do it. There's no more holding back in my part now.

Today, I was supposed to treat her and just hang out with her but Mother Nature was just harsh. She released this rainfall which was kinda being nice. Thank you very much.

But then, I must not worry for this event. There are still lots of opportunities for me to be exploited and certainly, I hope that this opportunities will lead me to a happier life.

Thank you for making me happy. I've gained a reason for me to be stronger again and bounce back. Thank you present. You know who you are. I must save Gil(Final Fantasy term for money) for me to be happy. Ehem.

This is it for now. I must still think of something for all the money that I've received in FFX.
Savvy?

I NEVER THOUGHT THAT THIS WOULD HAPPEN EVENTUALLY

"However far away, I will always love you. However long I stay, I will always love you. Whatever words I say, I will always love you. I will always love you."
-"Love Song" by 311-

Last night, all the pieces of the jigsaw puzzle that I have unintentionally created were finally put together and finally formed a picture. All because of a YM chat, the puzzle was solved. I can't believe that it would happen at all. I was simply dejected yesterday before the chat. Thank you for answering those questions that were left unanswered.

Maybe it's all my fault after all. I don't know why I keep on thinking like this but I really think that it's all my fault. If I didn't ask her lots of times, this would not have happened right? I felt sorry for myself that time. Seriously, I was "demoralized" by everything that transpired.

I'm not saying that I'm regretful of everything but then, it made me weak - a weaker person in terms of strength of character. But I'm now fine and that's all that matters for me at the present.

Thank you for still showing me kindness even though I didn't show you kindness during my "recovery" period. Thank you for explaining your side. I greatly appreciated it.

I really never thought that I would have the chance again to chat with her. Thank goodness "Doodle Method"! You saved me! LOL!

I have moved on but at times, the pain goes back like a gunshot. It all happens in the blink of an eye. But then, I am trying to forget the pain now. Hopefully, all will still be well.

Yes, it takes time to heal but then, I have managed to mask it thanks to all my friends. Thank you(err. . . the past that is) for making my life positive again. Thank you(the present this time around) for making me happy again.

This is it for now.
Savvy?

RECOLLECTION GOODNESS

"When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us."
-Alexander Graham Bell-

Today, we had our Recollection in our school. It was a really fun experience for all of us in Exodus. We got closer because of the said event. We really took advantage of the event and bonded to the max during lunch time. The gang was just really close during the whole event. Patrick was of course, saying his DoTA mastery lines. Jov, meanwhile, was saying that all of the DoTA players in the class are nothing but chicken feed. Marti was again teased with someone. LOL! Atan was just his usual quiet self. Apollo was just doing his thing as usual.

First activity was really fine and it set the mood of the activity. We listened to the song "Power of Love" by Don Moen, the great singer of Christian songs. The Recollection was mostly a venue to release all the insecurities regarding our own respective lives.

I can say that Lunch was the best time ever. Jov ate Nissin Cup Noodles. Pat ate bisteg. Marti ate bacon. Atan ate Chow Fan. Tristan ate quail eggs. Renato also ate Chow Fan. Bilog ate hotdogs. Yours truly also ate hotdogs. While eating, Atan suddenly cried. Of course, we comforted him. Jov was really just getting food from Marti so as to fulfill his food desires. I also got bacon from Marti. In short, we really shared our food.

I treated Jov, Pat, and Marti with KitKat. For some reason, I just did it and enjoyed the moment. Well, they said that I was acting like Santa Claus to them. LOL!

My fave part was when we passed a bond paper then our classmates would write a comment about us. I was really touched by their comments especially her comment. It was uber sweet. It was heartwarming. It really made me happy.

The Mass was also not boring. Tristan made me awake all the time alongside Cherie and Gemma. They made some fun with the way they sing the songs. Yes, it's unethical but I can't help but laugh out loud especially at Tristan.

Now about the quote by Alexander Graham Bell. Through this Recollection, I simply got an opportunity to get to know myself more. I appreciated this day a lot. I have gained a deeper insight about the real me - my own identity to be exact, that is. A "door" closes when we sin a lot, when we commit miscues a lot, for short, simply when we commit mistakes. A "door" opens when we have the will, the determination, the guts, and simply the attitude to be better.

Let's connect this quote to our own lives now per se. When an opportunity comes, we tend to decide first on it before we act. If you are to ask me about this matter, we simply must think seriously and heavily in matters like this. All factors must be considered. Of course, this is decision-making and we simply have to decide for our betterment. "Let every situation make you decide on something in life." This is something that I learned in the Recollection earlier. I believe in the principle that when we make a decision, chances are, we will be wiser and more mature in life. When an opportunity dies, we all tend to mourn about it. This must not happen. We simply must remember that there are second chances. We must not be oblivious from this forgotten fact. It simply is a matter of principles and beliefs in life.

This is it for now.
Savvy?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO:
Janica

ADVANCE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO:
Bea
Celine
Cyril